i am payton welcome to my DAIRU
6/26/22 8:50pm EST
i really really love deftones so much its my favorite band ever. anyway i had a dream that we were together and you had your hands all over my body and i was okay with it! despite my sexual trauma and hatred of being touched i was actually happy with you but i woke up sad. i dont even remember why i woke up sad but ive been up all day, i accidentally flipped my sleep schedule and now we are so far apart even though youre literally two hours away. earlier i cried because i didnt wanna be alive, everything in the us sucks right now and i just wanna go back into headspace where we make our own laws. im listening to deftones while writing this, did you know i love deftones? if vecna was getting me, play deftones. i love my incel bands so so much please ask me about them next time we talk. nyway i love you~! ♡
6/30/22 9;35pm EST
oh god im so giddy and bubbly im so inlove with you i sound like a total cornball im LITERALLY kicking and giggling thinking about you you make me so happy i cant stand it you are so pretty and i love you so much like.. you look like you were carved by ANGELS you are GODSENT girl i litrally worship u nd u have NO IDEA i need you so bad ahhghh i siund so cheesy like a dumb love comic im screaminf i need you BADDD I NEED YOU SO BADD~~~!!!!! momymy MOMMY i wanna kis u come over nn im smiling so hard and there are BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH i feel like a silly schoolgirl with her dumb schoolboy crush my organs are bubbling like POP POP POP and i feel so nervy im CLAMMY im like sweating im so nervous i dont wanna mess up or freak u out im so scareddd i want you so BAD i need you so bad hg my god mika mika mika MIKA MIKA MIKAKAAA